Amala Paul pens down an EMOTIONAL post; Explains how she battled depression

Taking to Instagram, actor Amala Paul narrated how she battled depression after the demise of her father.

By Aishwarya R

Updated on Apr 02, 2020 | 05:55 PM IST | 5M

Amala Paul pens down an EMOTIONAL post; Explains how she battled depression

By now, we all know that south actor Amala Paul lost her father Paul Varghese in January 2020 to cancer. Now, in a lengthy Instagram post, the Aadai actor narrated what all she went through after his demise. In the post, she also stressed at the importance of self-loving. In the post, the 28-year-old actor also explained how society conditions our behavior and how people are always sacrificing their inner child in the process of acquiring materialistic things.

She also spoke about what women are sacrificing just to make their living. Amala Paul claimed that along with her mother Annie Paul, she had had a long battle with depression, but now they are transforming themselves through healing and love. She also thanked her brother Abijith for his constant support during the troubled times.

LOSING A PARENT is a feeling that cannot be described, it's a MAJOR DOWNFALL and you begin to TRANSCEND into the UNKNOWN DARKNESS and experience varied emotions. Losing my PAPPA to CANCER OPENED a whole new DIMENSION IN MY LIFE. It made me realize so many things. Here's one such thought! . We live in a big beautiful world. Like the Yin to the Yang, we also live in a world carved out by 'SOCIETAL NORMS' that DICTATE our EVERY MOVE and EVERY THOUGHT. We start getting CONDITIONED from a very YOUNG AGE and SHUT OURSELVES through the TRAUMATIC EXPERIENCES and LOCK parts of our INNER-CHILD in to these BOXES. . Unfortunately in the RAT RACE TO THE TOP, we often AREN'T TAUGHT to LOVE OURSELVES. We don't ALLOW ourselves to OPEN THESE BOXES and HEAL our INNER-CHILD from these TRAUMAS and conditioning. . We shift from RELATIONSHIP after RELATIONSHIP, craving for company and searching for the missing 'HALF' in PEOPLE, THINGS, CAREER, SUBSTANCES, MOMENTARY PLEASURES, EXPERIENCES all a mean to ESCAPE OUR TRUE-SELVES only to be left more emptied. . WHEN WILL WE LEARN TO LOVE OURSELVES AS A 'WHOLE' AND FULLY EMBRACE THE DARK, LIGHT, GOOD, BAD, HAPPINESS, EMPTINESS, VULNERABILITIES ,PAIN, INSECURITIES, FEARS ? . Yes I have decided to WHOLEHEARTEDLY accept this and COURAGEOUSLY WALK THE PATH LESS TRAVELED.. no more ESCAPE! . MOST IMP - THE WOMEN we grew up looking up to have forgotten that they're as important as their family. Our MOTHERS have really forgotten to LOVE THEMSELVES, let alone HEALING!! They spend their whole life taking care of their HUSBAND, CHILDREN, FAMILY and NEVER FOR ONCE STOP to do SOMETHING for THEMSELVES. It's our responsibility to educate and make them understand about loving and nurturing their INNER-SELF BEFORE THEY LOSE THEMSELVES FOREVER!! I almost lost myself and my mom to the verge of DEPRESSION but here we are gearing up to FLY LIKE A PHOENIX in to transformation THROUGH LOVE AND HEALING. . Thanks to my constant support system, my dearest BROTHER for all that he is and especially for making my CHILDHOOD TRAUMATIC EXPERIENCES very entertaining and still continuing to do that Lots of love and healing to all the broken hearts

She wrote, “we shift from relationship after relationship, craving for company and searching for the missing 'half' in people, things, career, substances, momentary pleasures, experiences all a mean to escape our true-selves only to be left more emptied. . when will we learn to love ourselves as a 'whole' and fully embrace the dark, light, good, bad, happiness, emptiness, vulnerabilities ,pain, insecurities, fears? thanks to my constant support system, my dearest brother for all that he is and especially for making my childhood traumatic experiences very entertaining and still continuing to do that lots of love and healing to all the broken hearts”.